Weary

Things are not going well. Everything's fine with Amanda and th baby. And I'm in perfect health. The thing is my nerves - they seem to be shot. I don't have any discipline, and I can't seem to get my work done. I don't usually think of myself as a psychologically weak person; but for the past week I just haven't seemed to have any strength at all. I don't know what's going on. If anyone stumbles onto this and cares, please, brother, lift me up in prayer.

I found an interesting new forum - the Christian Pipesmoker's Forum. I'll add a link at the side. First of all, I'm learning lots more about pipes, tobacco and smoking. Second, I started a conversation there about emergent. It's not going so well. People just don't seem to understand the need. My favorite thing of all, though, is that the main argument so far has been 'why leave an old church to look for something new rather than fix the church you're in?' This from mainly reformed Christians! It seems a little odd.

I've also learned that I'm not nearly so far along in working for church unity as I thought. But I wonder if anyone is; I've realized that many of the people I've been reading, both in books and on the internet, are still in such a reactionary place that we speak in terms of 'why we're better than traditional/modern Christians/churches'. That can't be good; the point, it seems to me, of postmodernity is understanding that there is good in ALL types of Christian walks (well, alright, MOST); God is big enough to express himself in any way we can think of, and probably quite a few that we can't. So why shouldn't there be believers who are right at home in a traditional church? It makes perfect sense.